++Fish&Chips++ hahaax..tis is my forth blog le.. x) keep forgetting the passwords and usernames.. hais..really very disappointed with my results.. didn't really expect to be like tt.. thought i will do much better then my previous exams..yet the results is still the same.. dun understand why there are people that could excel without studying.. can tell mi the formules? i did studied but didn't do as well as i expected.. sometimes really got the sudden urge to give up and forget my goals. And become a no one.. and somemore my birthday is near,yet i'm feelin so down.. really dunno how terrible will my 15th birthday will be.. horrible.. birthday is a day where people get gifts and forget their sadness and pain and celebrate fer the day.. really dunno whether i can do that or not with such horrible results.. also dunno how to face my parents.. later i cannot control myself rebel how? i know myself well.. i was nv a guai girl in their heart b4.. i will vent anger on them i will scold them whenever i'm down. i nv said 'i love you' to them b4. i will always try to avoid them whenever i can. most of the time, the reason i was talkin to them as askin them for money and informin them tt i will b goin out nia nth much le.. my friends all say my dad dotes mi a lot,he will always willingly fetch my friends and i home..no matter how tired he is and how not convenience it is..i really thank him..really.. but those words jus can be say out from my mouth(T^T) dun really have any sweet memories with them now, only some sweet memories when i was very young. am i very horrible???? but of cos know wat they do is fer my own good..but i got short-temper. whenever they make mi annoyed i will jus scold back, but they...didnt scold back..they really didnt.. jus like yesterday incident, i wanted to rent vcds then i get changed and standin there waitin fer my mom to give mi money fer the rent fee.. but she didnt say anything,so i get annoyed and shouted '' Hello? ni bu yong give wo money ar?'' then she say must return then i really get angry and say i dun wan to rent vcds liao and slam the dorr.. today mornin she came up to mi askin whether need her money not.. tis is my life.. i know i gone bonkers sometimes.. i noe i gone much toooooo far liao.. really wanna say sorry.. and i could see the face on my mom when i gave her a rose fer mother day, she was very content and touched eventhough she didnt say anythng.. hais.. really hope to change fer the better.. i hope..
